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Can Someone Give Me a General Idea of My Problem?

Question by Mr. BIG: Can someone give me a general idea of my problem?
I am a 27yr old male 220lbs healthy. I was beaten and caged(in a house)for 15yrs before someone finaly killed them.
I drank n drugged till I was 19 (good times) and finally got sent to prison for three long miserable years.
When I got out I had never felt happiness till that moment but it only lasted a few hours.I worked hard and semi sober for about four years bought new cars, tv’s,quads,leather couches an everything I ever wanted And have had two good friends through it all.I have a very hard time speaking to people.Like anxiety you couldn’t imagine in your worst nightmare.
So,One month I decided to sell everything and move to Maui,Hawaii and lived there for two months before I came back.So,here I am living in my friends garage.I cant work I’m just a wreck(I hide it very well)I cannot feel anything but pain.
Nothing makes me happy.And I try every minute of every day.I want to live. But don’t know what to do. Help.
Blue,
help is what I’m asking this is the only free place.I have no money.
I live in Arizona.
They=parents